April 19th...A Painful Day

I'm not sure why I am hyper focusing on each day and everything that happened one year ago on this day.  I guess that's just how grief works with some people.  I can't seem to turn it off and so I find myself reliving the moments, the feelings, the pain.

• April 19th....my brother's birthday.  A birthday we will no longer celebrate together.
• April 19th....my sister-in-law's wedding anniversary.  An anniversary she can only celebrate in her memory.
• April 19th....2013....the day I signed the paperwork to officially put Ed on hospice.
• April 19th....2014....Holy Saturday.  The sadness of Good Friday lingers and we anticipate the resurrection of Christ, a joyous celebration.  
• April 19th....2014....A day to always remember and honor Michael.  A day to remember Mary and Billy's wedding day which marked the beginning of a marriage of unending love.  A day to remember a decision Ed and I made together, in union, a decision that put my love for him before anything else.

So maybe April 19th is a day about love...